This Narrative Poem came to life a Year after my father's death.
My father's death a rebirth for me. A bit cruel my thoughts yelled.
Not at all, I replied.
His death loosened the generational curses he carried.
Giving room for the warrior Queen in me to fully take her position.
The position she was given at Birth and trained for throughout her life.
All part of God's plan
Through the fire, I would go
Of smoke, I won't smell
My first battle
To survive death
Days after birth
My earthly protector turned into my Goliath
As he attempted against my life
Gasping for air I found myself
Instinctively fighting to live
Fear felt rather than safety
No recollection I have
Years went by with damage done
Distance placed between father and daughter
Unconditional acceptance and love never felt
From the man chosen to be my father
Mother and I
A conversation we would have
An Explanation she gave
Help me understand she tried
An emotional moment
As she relived the day
God used her to save my life
And a curse began
A generational one the worst of all
My mother saved me from physical death
My father placed me in a subconscious
Fight or flight position
To survive my mission
Anger I felt
Towards him
Disgust with her
For choosing this man
Day after Day
I saw her choose him
After the beatings, I suffered
The curses he spit my way
Tearing my self-esteem
How could she allow such disrespect
Her reasons she had
None I understood
All part of God's Plan
A dark journey followed my life
Trust nowhere to be found
Safety only I could provide
A heart overflowing with pain
Gray days my normal
Anger my favorite attire
Worthless Unloved my mantra became
An emotional life
Lived in self-sabotage
Never knowing the whys of my choices
No time for exploring
To live the objective
Emotionally unavailable
A subconscious action
Much comfort it gave
Sustained me
Kept me moving
Pain fueled my strength
To love a weakness
Slow me down it will
To conquer my focus
On my own, I found my way
Although never alone
I came to realize
Jesus’ a constant presence
In my life
Leaned into him for comfort
A start to a beautiful relationship
Love, Mercy, and Grace he provided
Purpose my life attained
Wisdom from the pain I gained
Dad my Goliath
The vessel used to create me
All part of God's plan
To Love My Father
Much prayer required
His end of days now near
Chosen for this moment
Face-to-face with my Goliath
Walk away or tear down the Curse
My choice alone
Into the suffering, I went
Alone I was not
Trust in my heavenly father
My weaknesses made strong in him
His love within me
Deep-rooted roots of Love, trust, faith, and hope
I now had
As my Goliath laid at my feet
Forgiveness he sought
Mercy, Grace, and Love I gave
On his last days
A generational curse I slayed
My rebirth began
My long-suffering
Perseverance
Patience
Not in vain
All part of God's Plan
His plan to prosper not to harm
Preparing me for a purpose
Beyond my sight
Transmutation taking place
Adversity turned into healing
Anger into love
Sadness into joy
Pain into wisdom
Shackles destroyed
From Victim to Survivor
From Surviving to Living
A Spiritual Warrior Queen I became
All part of God's Plan
Check out the video in You tube, where I am reciting the poem at a conference.
You will also find the video translated into Spanish.
Add comment
Comments
great job Tania !!!!!